From Syama Kripa dasi – Russia, Saint Petersburg

Dear Srila Gurudeva,
Please accept my obeisances in the dust of your lotus feet. All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
On Your Appearance day I want to express my love and gratitude to You. Dear Gurudeva, You’re all that I have. Thank You for showering Your mercy on me and accepting me as Your disciple. You allow me to see Your life as an example of devotional service to Krishna. You are like a lighthouse in the ocean of material existence that always show us the right direction. You make us feel the unconditioned love. You love us despite all our mistakes, faults and laziness. You can turn all our imperfections into service to our beloved Srila Prabhupada and Krishna and You see our abilities and believe in us. This faith encourages us and gives us enthusiasm and force to continue. And the most important thing is that we understand that faith and love really exist in this world of sins and quarrels.
Thanks to Your mercy I had a wonderful year of serving You, from Vyasa Puja 2019 up to Rishikesh. Thank you very much for allowing me to stay at Your side. Thank You for letting me to serve You. You engage so many devotees in service on different levels giving us an opportunity to destroy all our anarthas.
Thank you for the wonderful Polish tour and Woodstock, for the example You show us. Despite all You encourage us to preach and show the importance of preaching. It is amazing that the crowd of young people full of physical strength depends on Your mercy that makes wonders.
In Vrindavan and Jaipur on Kartik You showed us an example of unstoppable interest to Krishna’s lilas and you were making this knowledge deeper. You are always diplomatic and loyal to Krishna and Srila Prabhupada.
Dear Gurudeva, by your mercy I managed to stay in Vrindavan for a while and to pass the Bhakti Sastri course. Those were trying times, as we all were worrying about Your health condition. The winter was cold, our consciousness was dirty and our false ego was big. But I always tried to remember You and Your words about Vrindavan’s mercy and that made me realize and feel so grateful. And the most nforgettable event was Your preaching in Rishikesh. I am grateful for Your allowing me to be there with You. You really made a dream team there. All devotees there were unique and amazing. And we had a great result. Everything is possible if you want to please Srila Prabhupada. And as Svalaksana said, “it is an amazing example of the holy name working in a holy place”. My gratitude for You letting me be a part of it is endless.
Now it is a trying time for all of us. And a lot of tears were shed and prayers were said. Thank You for Your support; Your classes are like air and joy for us. We wait for Lord Krishna to allow us to continue our service to You.
Trying to become a decent servant of Yours, Syama Kripa dasi