From Syamala Gopi dasi – Russia, Orenburg

My dear spiritual master Srila Indradyumna Swami Maharaja,
I respectfully bow to your lotus feet. All glories to Srila Prabhupada! Let me thank you for being present in my life. The Bhagavad Gita says that Lord Krishna is the life force in all living entities. A physical body without a particle of spirit inside it is not able to live. Similarly, my life without you would be the life of a dead man. What is the point of not having faith in you, not listening to your instructions, not following you in everything, and not offering you prayers. Even my pathetic attempts to serve you are not in vain, because I feel that I am living not aimlessly. Sometimes it seems to me that these attempts turn out to be a complete spiritual failure for me, because the goal is too unattainable, too exalted. But every time after failure, I come back to your instructions again and again, and they inspire me with hope and faith to someday become better and find the necessary purity to serve you in the way your real students, those who truly serve you close.
I lost my job, and my days are now filled with the expectation of meeting you at webinars. I live happier now than ever, because I can see and hear how you talk about the Lord almost every day. This is my life force.
Your instruction to me personally was to share the grace that Srila Prabhupada gave us with other people. This is my most exalted, unattainable goal. Please send me your mercy so that I can achieve it without fear and doubt in my soul.
I am always at your feet, although I am not visible. I am always with you, dear Srila Gurudev, my heart beats to continue to drink the nectar of your instructions, my eyes see in order to watch you cry apart from Srila Prabhupada, and my ears hear to listen to Krsna Katha from your lips, and the mind is preoccupied with bold plans for how to bring your instructions to life. Thanks for everything that happens to me. All glories to you, my dear Spiritual Master.
Your servant not recognized by you, Syamala Gopi dasi