from Sri Rupa Manjari Pada Dasi

My Dearest Srila Gurudeva,

Hare Krishna! My beloved Spiritual Master, please, accept my most humble obeisances at your lotus feet. All glories to Srila Pr- abhupada! All glories to your Divine Appearance Day! All glories
to Sri Krishna Sankirtanam!

Today is my favourite and the most important day of the year. Words fail to express my feelings, but I’ll try.

My dearest Srila Gurudeva, no doubt, you are an amazing Spiritual Personality, empowered personally by Lord Sri Krishna Caitanya in the sankirtana mission. Lord Sri Krishna Caitanya endowed you with all His Divine Energies. You are saving billions of living entities flooding them with the nectar of the Holy Names! Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare!

tā-sabā tārite prabhu sei saba deśe yogya-bhakta jīva-dehe karena ‘āveśe’
sei jīve nija-bhakti karena prakāśe
tāhāra darśane ‘vaiṣṇava’ haya sarva-deśe

“To deliver people in regions throughout the universe who could not meet Him, Śrī Caitanya Mahāprabhu personally entered the bodies of pure devotees.Thus He empowered living beings [His pure devotees] by manifesting in them so much of His own devotion that people in all other countries became devotees by seeing them.” [Caitanya Caritamrita, Antya-lila, 2.13-14].

In truth you are the associate of Lord Sri Krishna Caitanya and Prabhupada Man! My Dearest Srila Gurudeva, you saved me from death, you pulled me out from the hell of material existence. Thank you very much for everything! Every day my heart fills with endless gratitude towards you.

It was you who gave me amazing name Sri Rupa Manjari Pada Dasi, Hare Krishna Maha-mantra, Gayatri mantra, association and service for the pure devotees, sankirtana mission, amazing lectures, webinars, kirtans, Holi Dham, Sri Sri Radha Govinda Devji darshans and more, and more, and more.

You gave me Sri Krishna and an opportunity to serve Him by doing every day puja. I am extremely grateful to you.

My dearest Srila Gurudeva, thank you so much for the wonderful spiritual experience on Kirtan fest in Rishikesh! It was Goloka Vrindavana, Gopi-bhava, Rasa-dance!

My dearest Srila Gurudeva, thank you very much for my name inscription in your secret diary with the name of the devotees you remember about. Now I know for sure I am made up of your mercy, and all my desires are fulfilled by your mercy only.

My dearest Srila Gurudeva, today, taking straw between my teeth and leaning to your lotus feet. I am praying, I am begging you, please, please, please, make me a pure devotee, drown me in the ocean of Sri Krishna Prema Bhakti and take my life for your sankirtana mission and Vaisnava service!

I am your property, please, engage me as you like, I agree to everything! But, please, include me in your team which travels forever all over the universe and flood all living entities with transcendental nectar of the Holy Names. Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare, Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare!

Karatals, dancing shoes, gopi dots and Srila Prabhupada’s books are ready! We are waiting for the lockdown to be over!

My dearest Srila Gurudeva, please, forgive my mistakes and my imperfection, I am trying my best to follow your instructions.

“O Gurudeva, I have surrendered my body and everything, that is mine, at your lotus feet. I should follow your every instruction. My only wish is to receive your merciful benediction by which you kindly make me drink the transcendental nectar of Sri Krishna’s lotus feet!”

Dearest Srila Gurudeva, to say that I love you very much and miss you very much means to say nothing. Billion, trillion times thank you very much for everything. I am crying, crying and crying in separation with you realizing clearer and more aware that every moment of my life is only your great and causeless mercy and nothing else…

sri krishna mati urdhvam gopi bhava samanvitam
tat dharmam sama smi to ham

“I take shelter in sannyasa dharma, which means full surrender to the Lord as a gopi for the sake of the only purpose that is to please Sri Krishna”. [Samskara Deepika, Srila Gopal Bhatta Goswami].

The eternal servant of your servants, Sri Rupa Manjari Pada Dasi