from Kamalavati Priya devi dasi – Spain, El Campella

Hare Krishna dear Guru Maharaj.
Please accept my humble obeseness! All glories to Shila Prabhupada and You!
Thank you for this year full of ecstasy coming from your lectures! It is a great opportunity to stay in connection with You and with the spiritual world. Your lectures are saying about the only important things in life—about God and his pastimes. They help to develop a taste to listening about God, to think not only about our lives and problems but about live of God full of love and their eternal pastimes. It helps to go beyond the routine of everyday material life and connect with different reality of bliss and happiness, the reality of spiritual emotions. That is what melts my heart drop by drop.
This year was especially very complicated for our family and myself. I didn’t write you about our changings but all the way through it I was feeling your support and strength from your lectures, lectures of Shila Prabhupada, reading Shrimad Bhagavatam and serving home Dieties Nitay Gaurachandra. I am a very lucky person to have a connection with such a great personalities!
So to be short now I live with my two sons in Spain, near my mother, two months ago Krishna kindly transported us before all the war problems started. My relationship with husband was so bad and painful full of violence and misunderstanding that one day I understood that that’s enough and then I needed some months to recover myself, lots of time actually… I know that you have such a soft heart and it could sound not so pleasing but actually everything is ok, I clearly understand that God gave me lots of lessons from this situation, from this marriage and from this break up and my husband agree with me too. Krishna can do whatever He wants and the most unexpected things could happen, but I can see lots of mercy in all what happened. I understood that the only one relationships which are eternally is those with God and only being addicted to Him and His mercy we can survive.
My benefits are that now I have more strong sadhana, I chant 16 rounds daily, more thinking of God and trying to satisfy Him by my service, want to do more for Him all the time, more listen lectures and have more clear and calm consiousness which helps to see things in the right light. Also I hold on to relationships with Petersburg devotees, communicate regularly with Achutatma prabhu, and continue preaching in Internet. All in all I feel like after this 5 years of home hell God gave me some spiritual and mental vacation to recover and I appreciate it a lot! Hope you will be happy to know that despite all the difficulties and vicissitudes of life your desciples are continue practicing, becoming more happy and grow in Krishna Consciousness!
I Know how much you appreciate the service of mothers and I guess you will be also happy to know that I m waiting for the third child being born in July. Last time in Vrindavan when I had an opportunity to talk to You a little I said about second son coming soon and You was so delight and happy! Nobody in my family was not so pleased with this news even me:). But You showed me by your reaction how great was the fact Krishna entrust me the child and how should I be appreciate to this. Now I believe that God knows what He does and hope that being alone with three small kids will be possibly for me. I believe that this is the best way for me to develop my love to God and so often I found myself helpless and situation out of my control that it quickly helps me to surrender to God, His will and His mercy. Please bless me to pass this test of motherhood with dignity and have enough strength for this difficult service.
Hope You will always have inspiration to preach all ofer the world Krishna Consiousness and wish Your desciples will always be ready to help You in Your mission!

Staying always close to your lotus feet in my mind,
your little servant, Kamalavati Priya dasi